After every trauma my ocd get worse and worse. Every little thing i do become something wrong that can be dangerous for my family. Or i feel like i don’t deserve to be happy because instead would be happen something bad.
I know is my ocd that make me think like that, but i can’t free myself from the terror that something horrible can happen. Because my life is already full of horrible things. Also my anxiety, obviously, is worse than ever.
I started again to delete account and stuff on internet, i opened and closed 3 or more blog before this one, this is the only one that i get opened for more than a year and i don’t wanna close it. Paranoia and anxiety are overhelming me.
I can’t have a second of peace, but i’m trying hard, not to drown.