No is not salsa is the life with my mental illness, every time something is better after few days is start to get worse. Of course is typical of bipolar to have up and down, but the only thing i want is a minute, just a minute of quiet, when i can relax. Continue reading “One step forward, one step back”
Yeah a time of joy, btw the feeling i hate the most is coming in this days: anger. I hate be angry for no reason, that is common in hypomanic state but i can’t support it, i feel the urge to throw object and smash all i can reach…i just want to chill and don’t damage my things, they cost. Continue reading “Nosense anger, fatigue and stomach ache”
Most of the time i try to take distance from problems, mine or my country’s problems, because everything hurt me 100 times more than usual, but at the same times is better get informed because is important for my future, buuut future? Then i think that anyway i don’t have a future so who cares!
But in the end i can’t stay distant and if i try i feel guilty or irresponsible, so i don’t know, i live of big “i don’t know”, i’m just here, now i feel like this in an hour? I don’t know.
I feel like an equilibrist trying to find the right balance with my meds. At the end go to the doctor it wasn’t scary, but my anxiety don’t wanna understand. The doctor have changed my meds again because in the last month i had a very bad acne and my memory is getting worse. Continue reading “I’m an equilibrist”
It would be nice if sometimes i can decide to do a thing and just…do it! Not for quote Labeouf but damn is hard. Anxiety and OCD kicking my head like a ball, i can’t do something without feel the sensation that if i do it something bad would happend. How i can explain to my brain that all what happened in the world is not my fault? Would be great.