Yesterday my psychiatric had suggest me the electroconvulsive therapy, and i dont’t take the thing well. Not at all. Honestly i feel like he sayd me that there is nothing to do for me, that i’m a lost cause, that i’m pratically dead. Yes, my depression is major and the meds doesn’t help a lot,… Read More Electroconvulsive therapy
Today i have to go to the doctor for request an aid for disability. A caos of papers because in Italy they can’t use the pc apparently. Btw, i’m scared by the idea of be in front of a group of people that have to decide if i’m “enough” disable. My social phobia doesn’t help,… Read More Percentage of disability
This days aren’t the best, some people that i care are sick so i’m very worried for them, but Halloween is a good way for distract myself a little. I have done a make up inspired from the character “Alice Angel” from the game “Bendy And The Ink Machine”
Today i went at the comics & manga’s fair with my sister and her two friends. I was a little anxious for my social phobia but is went all ok, i had fun. The depression was there all time in the background of my brain, but i simply ignored it.
As i’m not enough depressed, the depressional season hits me like a train. I wanna only sleep, i’m tired of living, i have the energy of a sloth. I just wanna stay in bed and watch the wall.
I’m going to the psychiatrist, finally (?) and i’m anxious, i’m always anxious, but now because i have the fear of not say what i have to say, everytime i go i can talk pretty easily, but nothing can keep away this fear of can’t explain myself. Also most of the times i just forgot important… Read More I can’t
No is not salsa is the life with my mental illness, every time something is better after few days is start to get worse. Of course is typical of bipolar to have up and down, but the only thing i want is a minute, just a minute of quiet, when i can relax.