Holidays and pride in my city

The last week i was feel a lot better, i went to the sea at Jesolo in Italy, is a beautiful place with big beachs and fresh air, i had a lot of fun and eat and sleep always at the same times at the hotel have improve my sleep.

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Pride month

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This is my drawing for celebrate the pride month on Deviantart (and in general) as nonbinary and bisexual this is also my month.Β Be nonbinary in my country is difficult, the 80% of people don’t know what a “nonbinary” is and theyr so rude and ignorant about lgbtq stuff. Plus my social phobia don’t help me at explain my identity. With the years i learned to be simply myself despite what people think.

I hope all of you that celebrate this month can be safe and happyΒ β™₯

On the rollercoaster – (little joy #5)

Yesterday i went to an Amusement Park, GardalandΒ in Italy, i love it, the park is awesome. I had already talk before about the fact i love park attractions that go fast, expecially rollercoaster, because is the only time when my brain shut up, the only time i can think at nothing. For me the void is a “comfort zone”, my brain go always so fast, with a lot of thoughts, is better since i take lithium, but is never quiet.

So yestardayΒ i enjoyed myself.

Happy, maybe – (little joy #4 ?)

In this days i was more productive, i have done a bunch of drawings, i read more and i go out more, i’m happy but at the same time can be the hypomania that starts to arrive. So i’m happy or what? I don’t know, i never know.

My birthday πŸŽ‚πŸŽˆπŸŽ – (little joy #3)Β 

Yeah, today is my bday! (27)

One part of me is happy, for the cake and the gifts, i have received a lot of awesome stuff by my family i feel loved.

But the depressive part of me is like “ah, today, the day when the hell is started” (the thought “i’m trash and i deserve nothing” never leave me). But i’m stay positive today is a good day.

Tomorrow i go with mom and sister at eat sushi and for a walk in the city, the last time i eat a lot because i’m about to start a diet, so i’m going to eat all i can.

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