No is not salsa is the life with my mental illness, every time something is better after few days is start to get worse. Of course is typical of bipolar to have up and down, but the only thing i want is a minute, just a minute of quiet, when i can relax. Continue reading “One step forward, one step back”
Finally i stay a little better, i had to modify the dose of my meds 3 times, but now at least i feel kinda good, also i really eat less at night or nothing at all, i lost weight decrease under the 80 kg.
Secondly my family take a new fan for my room so i suffer the heat but with a bit of fresh air.
I’m also happy that with the new type of lithium that i take my acne is almost disappear, it was really bad months ago so now i’m really content.
I went to my psychiatrist and finally he change my meds for sleep, so not anymore xanax and maybe if i can sleep immediatly i end eat at night.
But xanax give addition so i suffer a lot in this days without it, plus there are 112° fahrenheit, i’m melting, i litterally lived this 3 days on the floor of my room because is the only spot a little more fresh, also my fan is broken and i’m too poor for the conditioned air so i’m here with a cold pack.
I love summer, but i hate summer, i can’t stand the heat.
You know that bipolar feel when all is boring and you wanna change it? You wanna dye and cut your hair do a tattoo or move all the fornitures in your room? Yeah, i’m in that mood, so for not doing something drastic or expencive i start change my profile on social network or the themes of my blogs, infact here there is the new graphic of my blog. A little of yellow for this summer, i hope can like it.
Yeah a time of joy, btw the feeling i hate the most is coming in this days: anger. I hate be angry for no reason, that is common in hypomanic state but i can’t support it, i feel the urge to throw object and smash all i can reach…i just want to chill and don’t damage my things, they cost. Continue reading “Nosense anger, fatigue and stomach ache”
In this days i was more productive, i have done a bunch of drawings, i read more and i go out more, i’m happy but at the same time can be the hypomania that starts to arrive. So i’m happy or what? I don’t know, i never know.