As i’m not enough depressed, the depressional season hits me like a train. I wanna only sleep, i’m tired of living, i have the energy of a sloth. I just wanna stay in bed and watch the wall.
I passed pretty well my encounter with the psychiatryst, i said all i wanted to say, and now he change my meds for sleep and he give me a new one for the headache that actually works! I’m happy about it, headache was a problem i have from since i was 14-15, finally i have a little rest from that pain. Continue reading “No headache and rain”
I’m going to the psychiatrist, finally (?) and i’m anxious, i’m always anxious, but now because i have the fear of not say what i have to say, everytime i go i can talk pretty easily, but nothing can keep away this fear of can’t explain myself.
Also most of the times i just forgot important things to ask and i only remember them when i’m already at home, of course.
No is not salsa is the life with my mental illness, every time something is better after few days is start to get worse. Of course is typical of bipolar to have up and down, but the only thing i want is a minute, just a minute of quiet, when i can relax. Continue reading “One step forward, one step back”
Finally i stay a little better, i had to modify the dose of my meds 3 times, but now at least i feel kinda good, also i really eat less at night or nothing at all, i lost weight decrease under the 80 kg.
Secondly my family take a new fan for my room so i suffer the heat but with a bit of fresh air.
I’m also happy that with the new type of lithium that i take my acne is almost disappear, it was really bad months ago so now i’m really content.
I went to my psychiatrist and finally he change my meds for sleep, so not anymore xanax and maybe if i can sleep immediatly i end eat at night.
But xanax give addition so i suffer a lot in this days without it, plus there are 112° fahrenheit, i’m melting, i litterally lived this 3 days on the floor of my room because is the only spot a little more fresh, also my fan is broken and i’m too poor for the conditioned air so i’m here with a cold pack.
I love summer, but i hate summer, i can’t stand the heat.
You know that bipolar feel when all is boring and you wanna change it? You wanna dye and cut your hair do a tattoo or move all the fornitures in your room? Yeah, i’m in that mood, so for not doing something drastic or expencive i start change my profile on social network or the themes of my blogs, infact here there is the new graphic of my blog. A little of yellow for this summer, i hope can like it.