I like trai-

As i’m not enough depressed, the depressional season hits me like a train. I wanna only sleep, i’m tired of living, i have the energy of a sloth. I just wanna stay in bed and watch the wall.

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I can’t

I’m going to the psychiatrist, finally (?) and i’m anxious, i’m always anxious, but now because i have the fear of not say what i have to say, everytime i go i can talk pretty easily, but nothing can keep away this fear of can’t explain myself.

Also most of the times i just forgot important things to ask and i only remember them when i’m already at home, of course.

A bit of fresh air (little joy #6)

Finally i stay a little better, i had to modify the dose of my meds 3 times, but now at least i feel kinda good, also i really eat less at night or nothing at all, i lost weight decrease under the 80 kg.

Secondly my family take a new fan for my room so i suffer the heat but with a bit of fresh air.

I’m also happy that with the new type of lithium that i take my acne is almost disappear, it was really bad months ago so now i’m really content.

 

On the floor

I went to my psychiatrist and finally he change my meds for sleep, so not anymore xanax and maybe if i can sleep immediatly i end eat at night.

But xanax give addition so i suffer a lot in this days without it, plus there are 112° fahrenheit, i’m melting, i litterally lived this 3 days on the floor of my room because is the only spot a little more fresh, also my fan is broken and i’m too poor for the conditioned air so i’m here with a cold pack.

I love summer, but i hate summer, i can’t stand the heat.

I wanna change…everything

You know that bipolar feel when all is boring and you wanna change it? You wanna dye and cut your hair do a tattoo or move all the fornitures in your room? Yeah, i’m in that mood, so for not doing something drastic or expencive i start change my profile on social network or the themes of my blogs, infact here there is the new graphic of my blog. A little of yellow for this summer, i hope can like it.