In the last week i had very high pressure. The doctor never told me i had to take under control my pressure and with my bad memory i never did it. So now i take under control that (is very high when i'm anxious, so almost always) and my weight, the night i started eat … Continue reading High pressure (in anyway)
Finally i start doing my comfort box (an help for anxiety), i chose this box that is very pretty and i add some cute stickers (i love stickers), inside and outside. In the box, for now, i put it: Some paper with Vang Gogh Arts My fidget cube My bat fidget spinner A cute … Continue reading Comfort box
Today i had the visit in front of a commission because, like i talk about in the this post, i asked for an help. I was in a state of anxiety and panick for a week, because of the visit, but has been super fast, just some questions about how i feel and my difficulties … Continue reading Disability Benefits with bipolar disorder
// Attention! Trigger self-harm // // I was clean from self-harm since almost 2 years, and yesterday after a argue with my sister i dissociated and i trying to cut my wrist, but i fortunatly used a knife that don't cut well, so i obtein only a scrubbing and some blisters. My mom … Continue reading Self-harm and a copybook for self care
Today i have to go to the doctor for request an aid for disability. A caos of papers because in Italy they can't use the pc apparently. Btw, i'm scared by the idea of be in front of a group of people that have to decide if i'm "enough" disable. My social phobia doesn't help, … Continue reading Percentage of disability
The cat have attack my chinchilla, i have scream for 10 minutes straight, the worst panick attack of my life. Mom take the chinchilla to the vet, at the first moment seems something not major, but she get worst and today she's gone. My heart is broken. Life take all i love.
I'm not very ok at the moment, sorry for eventual grammar horror (more than usual), but i need to vent. I can't use the apps i usually use because i just probably broke my new phone. I'm the "nerd" of the family the one that "understand pc and stuf", but in this period no, not … Continue reading I’m a useless piece of trash (vent)