Sometimes i feel really alone and the only one that never leave me is my brain. When i was a child i talked very little. I maked friends with other kids that were super extrovert because they talked for me too, i had only to listen and follow them everywhere, but is not a good friendship.
I had finally received the reply after the visit with the commission for know if i can have some benefits or not. They valutated me with “major handicap” so, listen to the law i had some benefits, expecially for my mom that is the person that take care of me. Is not what i expected, i don’t have an allowance, but is ok if can … Continue reading Disability Benefits with bipolar disorder part. 2
Today i went at the comics & manga’s fair with my sister and her two friends. I was a little anxious for my social phobia but is went all ok, i had fun. The depression was there all time in the background of my brain, but i simply ignored it.
The thing i hate most about myself is the fact that i can’t talk with the people properly, i’m not shy, i’m just too tired for talk or i can’t say a world because my brain is somewhere else. In this days i was thinking about why i struggel so much to talk to people, sure is because of my illness, but also in hypomania … Continue reading Not too young for suffer
The anxiety before an appointment with the psychiatrist is strong. Would be nice be not scared all the times i have to do with another human. Continue reading I’m scared, like always
Yesterday at the library i felt very unconfortable, the librarian looked at me so bad because my little sister help me to borrow the books. With social phobia is impossible sometimes talk to strangers for me and i need help. I hate the glance that seems say “you are an adult but you can’t do commissions alone?“ Continue reading Panic! at the library