Yesterday my psychiatric had suggest me the electroconvulsive therapy, and i dont’t take the thing well. Not at all. Honestly i feel like he sayd me that there is nothing to do for me, that i’m a lost cause, that i’m pratically dead. Yes, my depression is major and the meds doesn’t help a lot,… Read More Electroconvulsive therapy
The cat have attack my chinchilla, i have scream for 10 minutes straight, the worst panick attack of my life. Mom take the chinchilla to the vet, at the first moment seems something not major, but she get worst and today she’s gone. My heart is broken. Life take all i love.
And all i loved. I loved alone -Poe Yes, everytime i’m the one who care, listen, understand, have patience, but others don’t do the same for me, never. I’m very lonely, but at the same time i know all my relationship end for the same problem, i give 100 and others give me 10. Of… Read More All i loved.
Is just become a little cold and i already have fever. I take all the possible meds, vitamins and supplements, but is all useless, my immune system sleep. Damn depression.
As i’m not enough depressed, the depressional season hits me like a train. I wanna only sleep, i’m tired of living, i have the energy of a sloth. I just wanna stay in bed and watch the wall.
I’m not very ok at the moment, sorry for eventual grammar horror (more than usual), but i need to vent. I can’t use the apps i usually use because i just probably broke my new phone. I’m the “nerd” of the family the one that “understand pc and stuf”, but in this period no, not… Read More I’m a useless piece of trash (vent)
No is not salsa is the life with my mental illness, every time something is better after few days is start to get worse. Of course is typical of bipolar to have up and down, but the only thing i want is a minute, just a minute of quiet, when i can relax.