Yeah a time of joy, btw the feeling i hate the most is coming in this days: anger. I hate be angry for no reason, that is common in hypomanic state but i can’t support it, i feel the urge to throw object and smash all i can reach…i just want to chill and don’t damage my things, they cost. Continue reading Nosense anger, fatigue and stomach ache
Most of the time i try to take distance from problems, mine or my country’s problems, because everything hurt me 100 times more than usual, but at the same times is better get informed because is important for my future, buuut future? Then i think that anyway i don’t have a future so who cares!
But in the end i can’t stay distant and if i try i feel guilty or irresponsible, so i don’t know, i live of big “i don’t know”, i’m just here, now i feel like this in an hour? I don’t know.
My “diet” (no pasta, no bread, no sweets) is going good the day but really terrible at night. Two days ago i exaggerated with the emptying of the fridge, i ate too much and i get a indigestion, i past all the night crawling on the floor of the bath. This will teach me a lesson? Nah, i will probably start eating at night again in 2-3 days, damn. Now stomach ache leave me quiet.
I finish now at the dentist, i can’t feel half of my mouth, but at least i didn’t had panic attack and that’s great. I did repair the broken tooth, but i have to go a lot of times more, pratically the 75% of my teeth have caries.
Two days ago i notice that one of my tooth is broken, for caries probably, but from a day to another a big piece of the tooth it came off for itself, without doing nothing. Continue reading I’m falling apart (litterally)
In this days i was more productive, i have done a bunch of drawings, i read more and i go out more, i’m happy but at the same time can be the hypomania that starts to arrive. So i’m happy or what? I don’t know, i never know.
Yep, doctor have said i can’t eat pasta, bread and sweets. Is like if he said me to jump out of a window, are 3 things i really love, plus i’m italian 83% of my diet is pasta, damn, no joke. I’m already trying to eat more healty, but with no success.
Now i helping myself with an app for make a list of what i eat daily and one app for drink more, Planty Nanny that is really nice, all the time you drink the planty grows, is really cute. But i’m fail already, yesterday i eat a lot of biscuits. This will be very hard for me. I have trouble also make the exercises, after 2 minutes i’m exhausted, i doubt that i can loss weight.