Attention ⚠ – trigger, self harm
With the snow and the cold, not very common at march in Italy, i caught a cold that is get worse in a bronchitis. Is 4-5 days that i live of mint candy and tissues. I already have problems with sleep without cough all night. Continue reading Snow and bronchitis
// Attention! Trigger self-harm
In a month i have lost my uncle, my chinchilla and my bunny. So far not the best year for sure. I’m more than broken. I just…i just don’t wanna suffer like this anymore, but the sufference is always there for me. My chest hurt so much. Continue reading This month
Yesterday my psychiatric had suggest me the electroconvulsive therapy, and i dont’t take the thing well. Not at all. Honestly i feel like he sayd me that there is nothing to do for me, that i’m a lost cause, that i’m pratically dead. Yes, my depression is major and the meds doesn’t help a lot, but i’m here and i fight! I fight everyday!!! Is … Continue reading Electroconvulsive therapy
The cat have attack my chinchilla, i have scream for 10 minutes straight, the worst panick attack of my life. Mom take the chinchilla to the vet, at the first moment seems something not major, but she get worst and today she’s gone. My heart is broken. Life take all i love. Continue reading 2018 is not so good…
And all i loved. I loved alone -Poe Yes, everytime i’m the one who care, listen, understand, have patience, but others don’t do the same for me, never. I’m very lonely, but at the same time i know all my relationship end for the same problem, i give 100 and others give me 10. Of course the bipolar disorder doesn’t help, but i was sure … Continue reading All i loved.
Is just become a little cold and i already have fever. I take all the possible meds, vitamins and supplements, but is all useless, my immune system sleep. Damn depression. Continue reading Is a little cold
As i’m not enough depressed, the depressional season hits me like a train. I wanna only sleep, i’m tired of living, i have the energy of a sloth. I just wanna stay in bed and watch the wall.
I’m not very ok at the moment, sorry for eventual grammar horror (more than usual), but i need to vent. I can’t use the apps i usually use because i just probably broke my new phone. I’m the “nerd” of the family the one that “understand pc and stuf”, but in this period no, not at all. I get confuse a lot of times and i do a lot of errors, like delete system app on my phone and now is in boot load, the reset doesn’t work. Continue reading “I’m a useless piece of trash (vent)”