With the snow and the cold, not very common at march in Italy, i caught a cold that is get worse in a bronchitis. Is 4-5 days that i live of mint candy and tissues. I already have problems with sleep without cough all night.
// Attention! Trigger self-harm // // I was clean from self-harm since almost 2 years, and yesterday after a argue with my sister i dissociated and i trying to cut my wrist, but i fortunatly used a knife that don't cut well, so i obtein only a scrubbing and some blisters. My mom … Continue reading Self-harm and a copybook for self care
In a month i have lost my uncle, my chinchilla and my bunny. So far not the best year for sure. I'm more than broken. I just...i just don't wanna suffer like this anymore, but the sufference is always there for me. My chest hurt so much.
Yesterday my psychiatric had suggest me the electroconvulsive therapy, and i dont't take the thing well. Not at all. Honestly i feel like he sayd me that there is nothing to do for me, that i'm a lost cause, that i'm pratically dead. Yes, my depression is major and the meds doesn't help a lot, … Continue reading Electroconvulsive therapy
The cat have attack my chinchilla, i have scream for 10 minutes straight, the worst panick attack of my life. Mom take the chinchilla to the vet, at the first moment seems something not major, but she get worst and today she's gone. My heart is broken. Life take all i love.
And all i loved. I loved alone -Poe Yes, everytime i'm the one who care, listen, understand, have patience, but others don't do the same for me, never. I'm very lonely, but at the same time i know all my relationship end for the same problem, i give 100 and others give me 10. Of … Continue reading All i loved.
Is just become a little cold and i already have fever. I take all the possible meds, vitamins and supplements, but is all useless, my immune system sleep. Damn depression.