Nosense anger, fatigue and stomach ache

Yeah a time of joy, btw the feeling i hate the most is coming in this days: anger. I hate be angry for no reason, that is common in hypomanic state but i can’t support it, i feel the urge to throw object and smash all i can reach…i just want to chill and don’t damage my things, they cost. Continue reading Nosense anger, fatigue and stomach ache

I care or not

Most of the time i try to take distance from problems, mine or my country’s problems, because everything hurt me 100 times more than usual, but at the same times is better get informed because is important for my future, buuut future? Then i think that anyway i don’t have a future so who cares! 

But in the end i can’t stay distant and if i try i feel guilty or irresponsible, so i don’t know, i live of big “i don’t know”, i’m just here, now i feel like this in an hour? I don’t know. 

My nighty lover: the fridge

My “diet” (no pasta, no bread, no sweets) is going good the day but really terrible at night. Two days ago i exaggerated with the emptying of the fridge, i ate too much and i get a indigestion, i past all the night crawling on the floor of the bath. This will teach me a lesson? Nah, i will probably start eating at night again in 2-3 days, damn. Now stomach ache leave me quiet.

Happy, maybe – (little joy #4 ?)

In this days i was more productive, i have done a bunch of drawings, i read more and i go out more, i’m happy but at the same time can be the hypomania that starts to arrive. So i’m happy or what? I don’t know, i never know.

Pasta, i have to say goodbye

Yep, doctor have said i can’t eat pasta, bread and sweets. Is like if he said me to jump out of a window, are 3 things i really love, plus i’m italian 83% of my diet is pasta, damn, no joke. I’m already trying to eat more healty, but with no success.

Now i helping myself with an app for make a list of what i eat daily and one app for drink more, Planty Nanny that is really nice, all the time you drink the planty grows, is really cute. But i’m fail already, yesterday i eat a lot of biscuits. This willย be very hard for me. I have troubleย also make the exercises, after 2 minutes i’m exhausted, i doubt that i can loss weight.