I’m going to the psychiatrist, finally (?) and i’m anxious, i’m always anxious, but now because i have the fear of not say what i have to say, everytime i go i can talk pretty easily, but nothing can keep away this fear of can’t explain myself.
Also most of the times i just forgot important things to ask and i only remember them when i’m already at home, of course.
I have a little problem with control myself in presence of chocolate in this period, previously i was eating a lot in general, now i have a fixation only with chocolate, i don’t know if is an improve or not. I started eating again at night or better at early morning because i wake up too early, the new meds for sleep start to not doing much. I have to see the doctor again, probably, but is cost a lot so for now i just wait. Continue reading “Five choco snacks at once is selfcare”
Finally i can stop doing the rain dance, with the rain the temperature it has lowered a little. In this days the temperature was 122° fahrenheit, never happened here, i was roasting like beef so i love rain more than ever. Also after more than 60 bites mosquitoes have leave me alone.
35 mosquito bites, they made a blood festival on my legs, jeeez
No is not salsa is the life with my mental illness, every time something is better after few days is start to get worse. Of course is typical of bipolar to have up and down, but the only thing i want is a minute, just a minute of quiet, when i can relax. Continue reading “One step forward, one step back”
Finally i stay a little better, i had to modify the dose of my meds 3 times, but now at least i feel kinda good, also i really eat less at night or nothing at all, i lost weight decrease under the 80 kg.
Secondly my family take a new fan for my room so i suffer the heat but with a bit of fresh air.
I’m also happy that with the new type of lithium that i take my acne is almost disappear, it was really bad months ago so now i’m really content.
I went to my psychiatrist and finally he change my meds for sleep, so not anymore xanax and maybe if i can sleep immediatly i end eat at night.
But xanax give addition so i suffer a lot in this days without it, plus there are 112° fahrenheit, i’m melting, i litterally lived this 3 days on the floor of my room because is the only spot a little more fresh, also my fan is broken and i’m too poor for the conditioned air so i’m here with a cold pack.
I love summer, but i hate summer, i can’t stand the heat.