I can’t

I’m going to the psychiatrist, finally (?) and i’m anxious, i’m always anxious, but now because i have the fear of not say what i have to say, everytime i go i can talk pretty easily, but nothing can keep away this fear of can’t explain myself.

Also most of the times i just forgot important things to ask and i only remember them when i’m already at home, of course.

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Five choco snacks at once is selfcare

I have a little problem with control myself in presence of chocolate in this period, previously i was eating a lot in general, now i have a fixation only with chocolate, i don’t know if is an improve or not. I started eating again at night or better at early morning because i wake up too early, the new meds for sleep start to not doing much. I have to see the doctor again, probably, but is cost a lot so for now i just wait.  Continue reading “Five choco snacks at once is selfcare”

It’s raining!

Finally i can stop doing the rain dance, with the rain the temperature it has lowered a little. In this days the temperature was 122° fahrenheit, never happened here, i was roasting like beef so i love rain more than ever. Also after more than 60 bites mosquitoes have leave me alone.

A bit of fresh air (little joy #6)

Finally i stay a little better, i had to modify the dose of my meds 3 times, but now at least i feel kinda good, also i really eat less at night or nothing at all, i lost weight decrease under the 80 kg.

Secondly my family take a new fan for my room so i suffer the heat but with a bit of fresh air.

I’m also happy that with the new type of lithium that i take my acne is almost disappear, it was really bad months ago so now i’m really content.

 

On the floor

I went to my psychiatrist and finally he change my meds for sleep, so not anymore xanax and maybe if i can sleep immediatly i end eat at night.

But xanax give addition so i suffer a lot in this days without it, plus there are 112° fahrenheit, i’m melting, i litterally lived this 3 days on the floor of my room because is the only spot a little more fresh, also my fan is broken and i’m too poor for the conditioned air so i’m here with a cold pack.

I love summer, but i hate summer, i can’t stand the heat.