Today i had the visit in front of a commission because, like i talk about in the this post, i asked for an help. I was in a state of anxiety and panick for a week, because of the visit, but has been super fast, just some questions about how i feel and my difficulties… Continue reading Disability Benefits with bipolar disorder
I open a profile on the site ThisCrush, click here: http://thiscrush.com/~forteilari . Where you can send some love and question to people, maybe a little help for my self esteem. If you have a profile feel free to link it in the comments.
// Attention! Trigger self-harm // // I was clean from self-harm since almost 2 years, and yesterday after a argue with my sister i dissociated and i trying to cut my wrist, but i fortunatly used a knife that don't cut well, so i obtein only a scrubbing and some blisters. My mom… Continue reading Self-harm and a copybook for self care
First of all i hope you can have a happy Valentine's day, if you have someone or not, i'm forever alone single so the card up here (my drawing) is for everyone that is alone like me, friendship love for all of you! I think to do a little list of selfcare and coping mechanism,… Continue reading Valentine’s day and selfcare
The year is didn't start well with 3 loss, but i wanna fight and go on like i always do! For the electroconvulsive therapy i decided to not doing it (for now at least) if i don't feel 100% sure is useless start a therapy like that. The new meds help me a little so… Continue reading Piercing and bodypositivity (little joy #7)
I could't imagine to be capable of keep a blog for a year, and of course not of reach 200 followers! Thank you so much, for all the likes, the comments, the support! This blog really help to cope with my illness. So thank you so much, i hope the best for all of you.
In a month i have lost my uncle, my chinchilla and my bunny. So far not the best year for sure. I'm more than broken. I just...i just don't wanna suffer like this anymore, but the sufference is always there for me. My chest hurt so much.
Yesterday my psychiatric had suggest me the electroconvulsive therapy, and i dont't take the thing well. Not at all. Honestly i feel like he sayd me that there is nothing to do for me, that i'm a lost cause, that i'm pratically dead. Yes, my depression is major and the meds doesn't help a lot,… Continue reading Electroconvulsive therapy
Today i have to go to the doctor for request an aid for disability. A caos of papers because in Italy they can't use the pc apparently. Btw, i'm scared by the idea of be in front of a group of people that have to decide if i'm "enough" disable. My social phobia doesn't help,… Continue reading Percentage of disability
The cat have attack my chinchilla, i have scream for 10 minutes straight, the worst panick attack of my life. Mom take the chinchilla to the vet, at the first moment seems something not major, but she get worst and today she's gone. My heart is broken. Life take all i love.