Today i went at the comics & manga’s fair with my sister and her two friends. I was a little anxious for my social phobia but is went all ok, i had fun. The depression was there all time in the background of my brain, but i simply ignored it.
I’m going to the psychiatrist, finally (?) and i’m anxious, i’m always anxious, but now because i have the fear of not say what i have to say, everytime i go i can talk pretty easily, but nothing can keep away this fear of can’t explain myself.
Also most of the times i just forgot important things to ask and i only remember them when i’m already at home, of course.
No is not salsa is the life with my mental illness, every time something is better after few days is start to get worse. Of course is typical of bipolar to have up and down, but the only thing i want is a minute, just a minute of quiet, when i can relax. Continue reading “One step forward, one step back”
Two post in two days, omg i’m so productive. Btw, my fidget cube is arrived today, is considerate a “trendy toy” but in reality is for people with a mental illness. I wanna see if is helpful with bouncing leg or with the continuesly pocking my acne, plus improve concentration, for now i already love it, the little red buttons are the best, so satisfating.
I feel like an equilibrist trying to find the right balance with my meds. At the end go to the doctor it wasn’t scary, but my anxiety don’t wanna understand. The doctor have changed my meds again because in the last month i had a very bad acne and my memory is getting worse. Continue reading “I’m an equilibrist”
The anxiety before an appointment with the psychiatrist is strong. Would be nice be not scared all the times i have to do with another human.
Today i went to a fair, there were some amusement park’s rides, i’m not really brave expecially with height, but i went anyway. It was nice forget for once of problems and feel only the trhrill of go down and up really fast. For some seconds no anxiety, no depression, nothing.