Holidays and pride in my city

The last week i was feel a lot better, i went to the sea at Jesolo in Italy, is a beautiful place with big beachs and fresh air, i had a lot of fun and eat and sleep always at the same times at the hotel have improve my sleep.

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Nosense anger, fatigue and stomach ache

Yeah a time of joy, btw the feeling i hate the most is coming in this days: anger. I hate be angry for no reason, that is common in hypomanic state but i can’t support it, i feel the urge to throw object and smash all i can reach…i just want to chill and don’t damage my things, they cost. Continue reading Nosense anger, fatigue and stomach ache

My fidget cube 

Two post in two days, omg i’m so productive. Btw, my fidget cube is arrived today, is considerate a “trendy toy” but in reality is for people with a mental illness. I wanna see if is helpful with bouncing leg or with the continuesly pocking my acne, plus improve concentration, for now i already love it, the little red buttons are the best, so satisfating.

half is something – (half) victory #2

It’s time to celebrate “half” victory, i have done more than half of my reading challenge, in this period i can read a little more (hypomania helps) and i don’t have to re-read a phrase for 18 times before understand the meaning. I feel like i can beat this challenge and even read more books than 20 and this sensation is great.

I care or not

Most of the time i try to take distance from problems, mine or my country’s problems, because everything hurt me 100 times more than usual, but at the same times is better get informed because is important for my future, buuut future? Then i think that anyway i don’t have a future so who cares! 

But in the end i can’t stay distant and if i try i feel guilty or irresponsible, so i don’t know, i live of big “i don’t know”, i’m just here, now i feel like this in an hour? I don’t know. 

My nighty lover: the fridge

My “diet” (no pasta, no bread, no sweets) is going good the day but really terrible at night. Two days ago i exaggerated with the emptying of the fridge, i ate too much and i get a indigestion, i past all the night crawling on the floor of the bath. This will teach me a lesson? Nah, i will probably start eating at night again in 2-3 days, damn. Now stomach ache leave me quiet.