I decided to not go for at the appointment to learn about the new therapy thing.
Today i had an appointment with my psychiatry, my insomnia is always more strong, same for my depression and with the last episode of self harm is worried only the meds can’t help me so much (I know for myself very well). He already proposed me the electroconvulsive therapy, like i write before, but i refuse because probably for me will do more damage than … Continue reading A new therapy
Attention ⚠ – trigger, self harm
Today i had the visit in front of a commission because, like i talk about in the this post, i asked for an help. I was in a state of anxiety and panick for a week, because of the visit, but has been super fast, just some questions about how i feel and my difficulties in life. I sayd them that i was in total … Continue reading Disability Benefits with bipolar disorder
Yesterday my psychiatric had suggest me the electroconvulsive therapy, and i dont’t take the thing well. Not at all. Honestly i feel like he sayd me that there is nothing to do for me, that i’m a lost cause, that i’m pratically dead. Yes, my depression is major and the meds doesn’t help a lot, but i’m here and i fight! I fight everyday!!! Is … Continue reading Electroconvulsive therapy
Today i go again to my psychiatrist, for talk about i can’t sleep and i have attack of rage without a reason. Apparently after like 2 years that i’m diagnosed the doctor find out i don’t have bipolar type 2 but the type 3, the mixed one, so instead of be “happy” in the mania time i’m depressed and angry. Greeeeat. Continue reading Not 2, but 3
And all i loved. I loved alone -Poe Yes, everytime i’m the one who care, listen, understand, have patience, but others don’t do the same for me, never. I’m very lonely, but at the same time i know all my relationship end for the same problem, i give 100 and others give me 10. Of course the bipolar disorder doesn’t help, but i was sure … Continue reading All i loved.
Is just become a little cold and i already have fever. I take all the possible meds, vitamins and supplements, but is all useless, my immune system sleep. Damn depression. Continue reading Is a little cold
Today i went at the comics & manga’s fair with my sister and her two friends. I was a little anxious for my social phobia but is went all ok, i had fun. The depression was there all time in the background of my brain, but i simply ignored it.
As i’m not enough depressed, the depressional season hits me like a train. I wanna only sleep, i’m tired of living, i have the energy of a sloth. I just wanna stay in bed and watch the wall.