Today i went at the comics & manga’s fair with my sister and her two friends. I was a little anxious for my social phobia but is went all ok, i had fun. The depression was there all time in the background of my brain, but i simply ignored it.
This monday i was walking with my mom and sister on street and we heard a desperate “meow” from some trash, so we going to see what is it and we found him:
It’s time to celebrate “half” victory, i have done more than half of my reading challenge, in this period i can read a little more (hypomania helps) and i don’t have to re-read a phrase for 18 times before understand the meaning. I feel like i can beat this challenge and even read more books than 20 and this sensation is great.
In this days i was more productive, i have done a bunch of drawings, i read more and i go out more, i’m happy but at the same time can be the hypomania that starts to arrive. So i’m happy or what? I don’t know, i never know.
Yeah, today is my bday! (27)
One part of me is happy, for the cake and the gifts, i have received a lot of awesome stuff by my family i feel loved.
But the depressive part of me is like “ah, today, the day when the hell is started” (the thought “i’m trash and i deserve nothing” never leave me). But i’m stay positive today is a good day.
Tomorrow i go with mom and sister at eat sushi and for a walk in the city, the last time i eat a lot because i’m about to start a diet, so i’m going to eat all i can.
Snow is a thing that make me happy like when i was a kid. Here in Italy snow is not so frequent and when it comes is always beautiful for me ❄
This is enough today for improve my mood.