half is something – (half) victory #2

It’s time to celebrate “half” victory, i have done more than half of my reading challenge, in this period i can read a little more (hypomania helps) and i don’t have to re-read a phrase for 18 times before understand the meaning. I feel like i can beat this challenge and even read more books than 20 and this sensation is great.

Happy, maybe – (little joy #4 ?)

In this days i was more productive, i have done a bunch of drawings, i read more and i go out more, i’m happy but at the same time can be the hypomania that starts to arrive. So i’m happy or what? I don’t know, i never know.

My birthday 🎂🎈🎁 – (little joy #3) 

Yeah, today is my bday! (27)

One part of me is happy, for the cake and the gifts, i have received a lot of awesome stuff by my family i feel loved.

But the depressive part of me is like “ah, today, the day when the hell is started” (the thought “i’m trash and i deserve nothing” never leave me). But i’m stay positive today is a good day.

Tomorrow i go with mom and sister at eat sushi and for a walk in the city, the last time i eat a lot because i’m about to start a diet, so i’m going to eat all i can.