In the last week i had very high pressure. The doctor never told me i had to take under control my pressure and with my bad memory i never did it. So now i take under control that (is very high when i’m anxious, so almost always) and my weight, the night i started eat a little less and sometimes i don’t eat at all, … Continue reading High pressure (in anyway)
I was under a low dose of lithium for the fact that cause me a lot of acne, but recent i had more than 30 mood swing a day, bad mood swing, rage for more. So i decide to take more lithium and accept acne. Honestly i prefer calm my brain than have less acne. Continue reading “More acne, but less mood swing”
🎇❤ Happy New Year! From Italy to all, i hope can be a good year! Continue reading 🎇
I wish a Merry Christmas and happy holidays to all! If you celebrate or not i hope this days can be good and full of joy for you.
Today i go again to my psychiatrist, for talk about i can’t sleep and i have attack of rage without a reason. Apparently after like 2 years that i’m diagnosed the doctor find out i don’t have bipolar type 2 but the type 3, the mixed one, so instead of be “happy” in the mania time i’m depressed and angry. Greeeeat. Continue reading Not 2, but 3
And all i loved. I loved alone -Poe Yes, everytime i’m the one who care, listen, understand, have patience, but others don’t do the same for me, never. I’m very lonely, but at the same time i know all my relationship end for the same problem, i give 100 and others give me 10. Of course the bipolar disorder doesn’t help, but i was sure … Continue reading All i loved.
This days aren’t the best, some people that i care are sick so i’m very worried for them, but Halloween is a good way for distract myself a little. I have done a make up inspired from the character “Alice Angel” from the game “Bendy And The Ink Machine”
Today i went at the comics & manga’s fair with my sister and her two friends. I was a little anxious for my social phobia but is went all ok, i had fun. The depression was there all time in the background of my brain, but i simply ignored it.
Yeah a time of joy, btw the feeling i hate the most is coming in this days: anger. I hate be angry for no reason, that is common in hypomanic state but i can’t support it, i feel the urge to throw object and smash all i can reach…i just want to chill and don’t damage my things, they cost. Continue reading “Nosense anger, fatigue and stomach ache”