All i loved.

And all i loved. I loved alone -Poe Yes, everytime i'm the one who care, listen, understand, have patience, but others don't do the same for me, never. I'm very lonely, but at the same time i know all my relationship end for the same problem, i give 100 and others give me 10. Of … Continue reading All i loved.

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Is a little cold

Is just become a little cold and i already have fever. I take all the possible meds, vitamins and supplements, but is all useless, my immune system sleep. Damn depression.

I like trai-

As i'm not enough depressed, the depressional season hits me like a train. I wanna only sleep, i'm tired of living, i have the energy of a sloth. I just wanna stay in bed and watch the wall. And i hate this now that halloween comes, because i love this holiday. Also my (probably) binge … Continue reading I like trai-

No headache and rain

I passed pretty well my encounter with the psychiatryst, i said all i wanted to say, and now he change my meds for sleep and he give me a new one for the headache that actually works! I'm happy about it, headache was a problem i have from since i was 14-15, finally i have … Continue reading No headache and rain

On the floor

I went to my psychiatrist and finally he change my meds for sleep, so not anymore xanax and maybe if i can sleep immediatly i end eat at night. But xanax give addition so i suffer a lot in this days without it, plus there are 112° fahrenheit, i'm melting, i litterally lived this 3 days … Continue reading On the floor

Nosense anger, fatigue and stomach ache

Yeah a time of joy, btw the feeling i hate the most is coming in this days: anger. I hate be angry for no reason, that is common in hypomanic state but i can't support it, i feel the urge to throw object and smash all i can reach...i just want to chill and don't … Continue reading Nosense anger, fatigue and stomach ache