Is really difficult find an equilibrium with bipolar disorder, especially with the mixed type that I have, but with the new pills i stopped eat at night, the impulse is less strong and now i can control myself, thing that i could’t do before.
And all i loved. I loved alone -Poe Yes, everytime i’m the one who care, listen, understand, have patience, but others don’t do the same for me, never. I’m very lonely, but at the same time i know all my relationship end for the same problem, i give 100 and others give me 10. Of course the bipolar disorder doesn’t help, but i was sure … Continue reading All i loved.
Finally i stay a little better, i had to modify the dose of my meds 3 times, but now at least i feel kinda good, also i really eat less at night or nothing at all, i lost weight decrease under the 80 kg. Secondly my family take a new fan for my room so i suffer the heat but with a bit of fresh … Continue reading A bit of fresh air (little joy #6)
Yeah a time of joy, btw the feeling i hate the most is coming in this days: anger. I hate be angry for no reason, that is common in hypomanic state but i can’t support it, i feel the urge to throw object and smash all i can reach…i just want to chill and don’t damage my things, they cost. Continue reading “Nosense anger, fatigue and stomach ache”
The thing i hate most about myself is the fact that i can’t talk with the people properly, i’m not shy, i’m just too tired for talk or i can’t say a world because my brain is somewhere else. In this days i was thinking about why i struggel so much to talk to people, sure is because of my illness, but also in hypomania … Continue reading Not too young for suffer