Attention ⚠ - trigger, self harm Since February i was clean, damn, but all the times i have a bad argue i feel the need of feel pain on my skin and not only in my head. All the time i feel guilty for been a waste of space and a problem for my family … Continue reading Self harm again
The year is didn't start well with 3 loss, but i wanna fight and go on like i always do! For the electroconvulsive therapy i decided to not doing it (for now at least) if i don't feel 100% sure is useless start a therapy like that. The new meds help me a little so … Continue reading Piercing and bodypositivity (little joy #7)
Is just become a little cold and i already have fever. I take all the possible meds, vitamins and supplements, but is all useless, my immune system sleep. Damn depression.
As i'm not enough depressed, the depressional season hits me like a train. I wanna only sleep, i'm tired of living, i have the energy of a sloth. I just wanna stay in bed and watch the wall. And i hate this now that halloween comes, because i love this holiday. Also my (probably) binge … Continue reading I like trai-
I'm not very ok at the moment, sorry for eventual grammar horror (more than usual), but i need to vent. I can't use the apps i usually use because i just probably broke my new phone. I'm the "nerd" of the family the one that "understand pc and stuf", but in this period no, not … Continue reading I’m a useless piece of trash (vent)
Yeah a time of joy, btw the feeling i hate the most is coming in this days: anger. I hate be angry for no reason, that is common in hypomanic state but i can't support it, i feel the urge to throw object and smash all i can reach...i just want to chill and don't … Continue reading Nosense anger, fatigue and stomach ache
Yep, doctor have said i can't eat pasta, bread and sweets. Is like if he said me to jump out of a window, are 3 things i really love, plus i'm italian 83% of my diet is pasta, damn, no joke. I'm already trying to eat more healty, but with no success. Now i helping … Continue reading Pasta, i have to say goodbye